— Read on moments-by-mel.com/2020/09/27/2133/
I’m standing on this bridge, in between two worlds. The same magic that is there in every moment, seen and unseen. I remind myself that what I’m feeling in that very moment, is not a reflection on what really is. I create dramas and worries that are only real because I make them so. That life paints a different picture. Life is always dancing and nothing can change that, even silence.
Every time I lay down my head, something pulls me further away. Like a magnet, charged by the shadows that are left behind. I cling on to them, ignoring the light that exists. And I become lost and disillusioned, by the tragedies from my past. But I know that I’m getting there, to the place that I have not known in a long time. In my heart I’m already there.
In this place, the stars shall be enough…
I come to you, just as I am.
Bare and naked under the moonlight.
I come to you, with all my heart.
I want to fill my heart with yours. I want more of our kisses, hard and then soft.
I want all of you, the calm, the storm.
I thought I wanted you,
but I wanted me.
The real me, the divine me.
The me that connects to everything, all that is sacred.
I’m scared if I hold on to you,
I will lose myself. The self I’m still trying to find.
I want to love me first, I need that to be enough.
I don’t want to need your love.
I just want it to be an extra.
I’m in love with the world.
I don’t want to be claimed,
the earth has already claimed me.
Life has given me a clean slate,
wiped away with rain.
It’s telling me that I need to trust, this I already know.
The time has come to face what I know deep down I can.
I have faced far worse than this.
I can do it.
Even when I’m laying on the ground, fallen and all alone.
A silent whisper of light always holds my hand.