I’m standing on this bridge, in between two worlds. The same magic that is there in every moment, seen and unseen. I remind myself that what I’m feeling in that very moment, is not a reflection on what really is. I create dramas and worries that are only real because I make them so. That life paints a different picture. Life is always dancing and nothing can change that, even silence.
Every time I lay down my head, something pulls me further away. Like a magnet, charged by the shadows that are left behind. I cling on to them, ignoring the light that exists. And I become lost and disillusioned, by the tragedies from my past. But I know that I’m getting there, to the place that I have not known in a long time. In my heart I’m already there.
In this place, the stars shall be enough…
They come like wild flowers. I got used to solitude, I got used to my own skin.
Then you came out of nowhere, and you caressed me. Your hands touching my skin, this time. But you lied to my heart. With the soft strokes of your finger tips, you made me feel that I mattered, that I was enough. But you didn’t really want me. You just wanted to make me feel like you did, so you could feel good about yourself.
All of the wildflowers, are taking their toll on me. Instead of already feeling whole in my own solitude, I have come to yearn for that certain sweetness that you can’t have on your own.
I am the dark moon. I am the light that trickles down from the sun.
I am the wind that moves mountains. I am the storm that can’t hold on.
I am the love that surronds us, the magic that is hidden.
I am the heartbeat, that you feel close to you, the one that is so close to your heart. The heart beat that still beats even when you’re not there.
I am the girl, that took you by surprise. The one that came out of no where. The girl that fell from the stars.
I am the girl, that will grab your hand and squeeze it tight. The girl that will make your dreams even dreamer, and your days so full of light.
I am the girl, that will come to you, bare and naked, open and whole.
I will rise you from your sleep, like the perfect sun waking up.
I will kiss you a thousand and one times. I will wrap my heart around you, and never want to let you go.
When we say goodbye I will cry a million tears. I will hold on to our memories and play them over my head, again and again.
I am the dark moon and you are the sun that lights me up.
It’s all okay, because you are worth the wait. I still need a little bit more time to find myself.
My longings, are my own. This is the place that I have had to come to.
This place, where I no longer need to desire or yearn or even crave. This place right here, where all that I need to feel, I already do within every part of me.
I will get to that place, when I’m dancing. That sweet, sweet place where you will see me fly.
I had forgotten how good a coffee tasted. I had forgotten how good the world tasted.
So I gave myself the permission to stop just that little bit more.
I realised that it’s okay to tell myself that it’s the clouds that are really moving, and not the sky.
I realised that it was okay to talk to a stranger, to talk to a dog as if it were a person.
That just to feel the warmth of the sun touching my back is enough.
I realised that it was okay to enjoy the rain, that it not only cleanses the earth but it cleanses me too.
I realised, the sun and the rain can wake us up, if we just let it.