This courage, I’m still trying to find. I peel back the layers that life has built around me. I won’t be fooled by my perceptions, because that’s all they are. Sometimes what is real is buried deep down underneath. So don’t get caught up in the confusion. The illusion that what you see is always real.
Xo
I feel this coldness creeping inside my skin. But I will not wait until I feel brave to let go. Because courage comes when we face our fears. And so I dance anyway.
I close my eyes, inhale in life and exhale wonder.
Xo
I transformed my pain into freedom. I picked myself up, along the pieces of me scattered all over the ground.
My pieces transformed into star dust, all over my skin. And every morning when we wake up, we get to be born all over again.
I kept on remembering what I already knew. That I was whole, and my pieces weren’t scattered everywhere.
Without realising I was holding onto guilt and shame, for something I never did. And now I have no more excuses to hold onto it.
I realised that freedom is inside of me, it never left me. I am freedom. A flicker of light, and the exact perfect concoction of sun and moon.
Xo
I’m standing on this bridge, in between two worlds. The same magic that is there in every moment, seen and unseen. I remind myself that what I’m feeling in that very moment, is not a reflection on what really is. I create dramas and worries that are only real because I make them so. That life paints a different picture. Life is always dancing and nothing can change that, even silence.
Every time I lay down my head, something pulls me further away. Like a magnet, charged by the shadows that are left behind. I cling on to them, ignoring the light that exists. And I become lost and disillusioned, by the tragedies from my past. But I know that I’m getting there, to the place that I have not known in a long time. In my heart I’m already there.
In this place, the stars shall be enough…
Xo
Inside the chaos, their is a softness. A sweetness, a gentle touch.
A love that never stops.
Xo
Magic always finds me. It picks me up just in time, before it all turns into madness.
In a world that tries to harden me, I remain soft and vulnerable. I will not be tricked. Tricked into thinking that I’m not enough, that I don’t already have all that I need.
Because I am set in light, and nothing can or ever will break me.
Xo
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