Their are moments where I’m trying to catch myself. I get lost inside the noise, but my essence is still here beating, loving.
I want to take the layers off, so I can feel the light more, dancing on my skin. And just so every tiny bit of life (magic/goodness) can reach me.
I take a deep breathe, feeling the air fill up inside all of me. And then I release just like that, with no effort needed.
Xo
The wind whispers, ‘it’s going to be alright’. Life holds me like the stars holds its stars. Strangers bring me their light, smiles like golden hours. They fill me up and carry me.
But when I allow myself to be completely alone, I feel an emptiness. The scars deep inside, I can feel every inch of them. I taste the blood inside my tears. And their is no one to carry me, to hold me. I wonder is it because I don’t need anyone? Or is it because I have been forgotten about?
But maybe it is meant to happen, when I’m grey and old. When I have exhausted every strength, lived every ‘me’ time to its fullness. And the wind will whisper to me, ‘he has arrived.’
Xo
Stars shaped like diamonds. Scents of yesterday, lingering. I hold the magic close to me.
I used to feel afraid. Life was passing me by, and still I held on. Afraid that if I gave away all of me, their would be nothing left. That I would be too much, or not enough.
Then I remembered who I was, who I really was. And not just the me I could actually see, but the unseen part of me. My essence, my life force.
The calling came before I was born. The real part of me has always been here. Parts of me inside the ocean and inside every sky.
Life held on, and I never let go.
Xo
I am the dark moon. I am the light that trickles down from the sun.
I am the wind that moves mountains. I am the storm that can’t hold on.
I am the love that surronds us, the magic that is hidden.
I am the heartbeat, that you feel close to you, the one that is so close to your heart. The heart beat that still beats even when you’re not there.
I am the girl, that took you by surprise. The one that came out of no where. The girl that fell from the stars.
I am the girl, that will grab your hand and squeeze it tight. The girl that will make your dreams even dreamer, and your days so full of light.
I am the girl, that will come to you, bare and naked, open and whole.
I will rise you from your sleep, like the perfect sun waking up.
I will kiss you a thousand and one times. I will wrap my heart around you, and never want to let you go.
When we say goodbye I will cry a million tears. I will hold on to our memories and play them over my head, again and again.
I am the dark moon and you are the sun that lights me up.
Xo
Life wants to know what you are made of. It already knows who you are and what you need. But it wants to know more of what you ache for.
Life wants you to know what is inside of you. It wants you to realise that their is nothing you can’t face. It already knows that you’re already the fire. Now it needs you to know this.
That’s why life makes you ache sometimes, it breaks you down until you feel like their is nothing left. But their is my dear, underneath all the layers you have wrapped around yourself is a wholeness so pure, so full of love and magic.
Xo
This is life. Right here, right now.
That exchange between your coffee cup and your waiters hand. You have a moment and right away you feel that magic.
The sun touching you, at exactly the right spot, the very same spot it touched you yesterday.
Nothing else matters, but right here, right now.
Life is just way too precious, to be anything else. Anything but magic, when moments so light, so full of joy or in that moment of clarity and so much peace.
Xo
Their is always beauty in what is left behind.
After you have let go, that little bit more, you become part of that magic that is already here.
Xo
Even in uncertainty their is magic.
You just have to be brave enough to see it.
Xo
I was still holding on.
I wanted that impossible dream, to be saved. To be somewhat cleansed and renewed. Kind of like, back to the start, back to the magic.
I yearn for this fire, that is so inside of me, it even surrounds me.
But I’m still learning how.
How to walk through it, without getting burned.
Making it to the other side, unscathed, without any scars.
But that’s impossible right.
I have learnt allot about love, about people, about us.
Beautiful souls that I meet along my way, they are the ones that save me.
Xo
Today, everything changes.
Nothing stays the same.
Nothing ever remains constant, except for magic that follows us.
Xo
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